No matter how much I promise myself...no matter how much i decide...times come when I get lost in memories...thoughts....regrets..... How gradually from being a very filmi guy , from being someone who considered love the most important thing in life I got transformed into someone who just cant love now....someone who understands (rightly or wrongly) love as a phase , something that is not meant to last...something that you enjoy and then remember...something that you cant own, cant make it to stay... something that rapidly moves towards nothingness...and when it ends God save you if it ends first from your partner's side...
At the same time, its a bloody scoundrel...it controls you completely and when you give in to it...when you become a slave to it...it suddenly throws you free...suddenly it starts running away and gradually it simply vanishes. Yes....you guessed it right...I have suffered at its hands too...and quite a few times actually... I should have learned from the first mistake...but its the most tricky enemy I have met...It came again and again promising that it would stay and ditched me... always more cruelly than the previous time...But this time it wont be allowed at any cost to enter my life...Because I have understood thou game you filthy animal....you will always drug me...every time more sweeter than the previous and then when thou spell lifts...thr are severe side effects...Maybe this is similar to the fox saying grapes are sour...but it definitely saves the fox from the idiotic jumping....