waiting for ur call...

I was waiting for ur call baby
even as the doc did all the talking
told me about the operation to be in 2 hrs
all i thought was i had a fine lady
and i was waiting for ur call baby

I was waiting for ur call baby
saw my dad besides me, worried and tensed
talking to me, scolding me for my condition
all i thought was how much i missed u
and i was waiting for ur call baby

I was waiting for ur call baby
and suddenly the phone rang
it was my best friend, yes he cared
all i thought was , did my baby care?
and i was waiting for ur call baby

I was waiting for ur call baby
and my uncle came to see me
asked me why i seemed so worried
all i thought was , how do i tell him?
that i was waiting for ur call baby

I was waiting for ur call baby
and each time the phone rang
they all wanted to wish me luck and a smooth recovery
all i thought was , my good luck lady will call
and so i was waiting for ur call baby

i was waiting for ur call baby
and the doc came and gave me anaesthesia
told me i wud lose consciousness for the day
all i thought was , only a few minutes to go,
and i was still waiting for ur call baby

i was waiting for ur call baby
and fighting to hold my senses
finally i decided to give up and sleep
and all i thought was , this was gonna be the last time
that i was waiting for ur call baby

No matter how much I promise myself...no matter how much i decide...times come when I get lost in memories...thoughts....regrets..... How gradually from being a very filmi guy , from being someone who considered love the most important thing in life I got transformed into someone who just cant love now....someone who understands (rightly or wrongly) love as a phase , something that is not meant to last...something that you enjoy and then remember...something that you cant own, cant make it to stay... something that rapidly moves towards nothingness...and when it ends God save you if it ends first from your partner's side...
At the same time, its a bloody scoundrel...it controls you completely and when you give in to it...when you become a slave to it...it suddenly throws you free...suddenly it starts running away and gradually it simply vanishes. Yes....you guessed it right...I have suffered at its hands too...and quite a few times actually... I should have learned from the first mistake...but its the most tricky enemy I have met...It came again and again promising that it would stay and ditched me... always more cruelly than the previous time...But this time it wont be allowed at any cost to enter my life...Because I have understood thou game you filthy animal....you will always drug me...every time more sweeter than the previous and then when thou spell lifts...thr are severe side effects...Maybe this is similar to the fox saying grapes are sour...but it definitely saves the fox from the idiotic jumping....